TryingToStopCryingMyHeartOut

I'm sorry
I'm just a broken doll
quite far from Barbie
I don't fit in
the shiny happy world

how much I would like
to bring you joy
I'm scared of failing
again and again
all I have is these words

and my sea of tiny tears

I could try to make
them shine like diamonds
shine on you crazy diamonds

this is all I have

and too many thoughts
too much fighting
going on inside
fighting for my life

alone in this madness
fighting like hell
to be healthy and sane
to be someone
worth caring

something more
than this foolish
shaking creature
made of tears

I know I can smile
I remember I can
I'd like to feel
that smile on my face
once again

sometimes
I wish I could be
like them
someone to be liked
someone nice and easy

but all I have is me
difficult to breathe