Dancing on iceWould you skate with me
on thin ice of life
would you dance for life?

No time to rehearse
straight on to the show
just raise your head and go

We'll be just fine
because you're mine
and I'll never let you go

Would you dance with me
even if the ice breaks
under our feet?

Through the diseaseI'm sickness
I am a disease.
It's not me,
I'm not the illness,
but it's eating me.

I fight as hard as I can
and I get exhausted,
it's a beast without face,
it's a fear with no name.

It makes me look like a monster,
it makes me lose my mind,
it makes me think
the whole world is against me,
they have a scheme
to destroy me.

Sometimes I know
it's not real
but too often
I cannot tell
what's real
and what's caused
by that awful thing
d e p r e s s i o n.

I have a name
I have a face
I have a heart
I'm a human,
I'd like to be treated
like one of them,
like anyone.

But there's this thing
that keeps me in prison
inside

Sometimes I feelI'm invisible
you watch through me
smile through me

I'm a broken window
without cracks on glass
would you see me at all?

Let the music reach youYou know music
is everything
everything in music
you know I am music
just like you
I breathe it too

Through these songs
I feel everything
through this music
I reach you
let these songs
tell you everything

So don't you feel blue
I send only good
feelings to you
so let the music
flow through you
and just be good

White songI wished for rain
and the rain came

wind softly sweeping
first autumn leaves
weeping
with my august tears

I'll blow the cooling wind
gently over seas
into your white room

and sweep away all monsters
under your bed
hide an angel
under your pillow

nothing, nothing will ever
hurt you anymore

and I listen to the rain
make the pain go away

no more monsters
in your head
I want 'em dead

and you'll be well again
break that shell
tear down the wall
that locks you inside

there will be angels
carrying you back to life
on white wings

and there will be music
and that mystery song
of a white swan
hear what it sings...

I'm not fishingI'm just sitting here
watching the water bubbling
like someone just drowned

and I just wanna follow
want to dive behind

you

find all treasures underwater
our lost city of lights

you

Prayer for rainThese days
my heart is far away
torn in pieces

and I miss so much
I feel like I'm
drowning

and I can't take
the sunshine

please let it rain

rain on my longing
rain on my tears
rain on my silence

rain on this empty
hole inside of me...

Sometimes the light is lostall I can do is wait
wait for the storm calm down
without knowing what causes
the tidal wave
to trust God
give everything in his hands

I'm breaking down
under this pressure
of things I can't control
I'm drifting
trying to hang on
clinging into things
hands that seem safe

nothing here is safe
nothing is sure
who can I trust
world's sick conspiracy
this wall in my head
does anyone hear?

I'm hanging on
I'm fighting the waves
still don't know
how to swim
but the sea carries me
and I conciously drift
towards the lighthouse
its comforting inflorescence

To touch the skyI want to ride
the London eye
once in my life
touch the sky

don't ask me why
because I'm alive
I want to try
I wanna fly

look into my eyes
I want to sing
you lullabies
as daylight dies

don't ask me why
I'm full of light
when I see skyes
reflected in your eyes

For every past lossWatching
lilacs bow down
in pouring rain

seeing myself
as a reflection

distant shades of pain

how low
did I bow?

Watching the rain
with clouding eyes

how quickly
everything dies

should I know
should I
stay prepared

for losing

or stop being scared?

You're musicYou're deep inside me
like a song from childhood
never to be forgotten

to me you're music

a distand melody
without any words
because words so easily ruin
all beautiful and fragile

to me you're music
no one else can hear
the way I hear

I wish I'd understand now
to be so quiet
that I wouldn't lose
the silent tune
start humming
my own words

to me you're music

without needless words
just the way it is

They never even saw meSo I stopped existing again
disappeared into rain
grew together with pain

people only see shadows like me
when sun shines perfectly
and shadows like me
shouldnt be on the way
when it's a lovely day

so sweep me away

I belong to the darkest night
where no one sees me at all
and I don't need to fight
for my existence at all

I'm free to fall

sink into deepest seas
of my tears and fears
you don't need to care
you don't need to bear

I could never be like them
the ones worth love
it's so grey I barely see
any stars above

I close my eyes
and bury myself again
under the heavy rain

no one even sees
that something dies

inside

This placeI could never leave this place

this athmosphere
all the kindred souls
nights and days
full of words
poems and pictures

I couldn't go
even when a cold breeze
sometimes drives me
to the door

sometimes it hurts
when you feel like
you don't belong
like you're singing wrong
you don't know the song

but I can't give up
I must believe
our voices match again
share the same tune

I'd like to fill
this place with love
sounds of peace
words of wisdom

let all flowers bloom
with their unique beauty
let the words flow
in harmony
until eternity

let love never leave this place

Free me from myselfHell inside me
tearing apart
my weary heart
I keep failing
judging myself
over and over

deep in my heart
little girl cries
wanting to be loved
giving away
her heart
part by part

but they all drown
in my tears
I bury myself
under years
and shadows
of my fears

hoping you would see
past the shadows,
me
drifting
in eternity,
real

little girl
with dusty wings
desperately
clinging into things
afraid to lose
herself, everything

life falling
out of my hands
like sand
I keep calling
the wind
to set me free

My angel in HeavenI was drowning
in my various sorrows
when I heard this
sweetest voice
an angel
my grandmother
in heaven

she said
girl, you should
take care of yourself
and love yourself,
and she said
it breaks her heart
to see me suffer

and I realized
how right she was
like always
I shouldn't
punish myself
for being hurt
as if the hurting
wasn't enough

so I promised
my dearest angel
I will try
to care for myself
and not let this world
grind me down

you see,
grandmothers
are so wise
and they're always right
deceased or alive

and I know
for sure
my angel on earth
now my angel in heaven
is watching me
in my heart

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Alone and scared

by ~vonderwall, Aug 9, 2008, 6:39:08 AM
Literature / Poetry / Human Nature / Urban & Spoken Word

World
is a poisoned apple
someone's trying to stuff
into my throat
and every time I think
I will survive this
but I feel I'm choking
and the poison spreads
all over me
I stagnate

this is not a fairytale
faces twist
words are bullets
I tried my best
wasnt enough
never will be?
was a fool again
I can't play this game
I'm nothing
thanks for reminding

where are all
stuffed animals
when they're most needed
cats only come when
they want to be petted
then go away
everyone goes away
I'm scared
hurt, scarred
why must I always
be this way?

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I luvs u dear...

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*Jazzman1989 Aug 11, 2008 Student Writer

So true

The world can be scary and lonely especially when no one wants to be there for you. But when you have a true friend, they won't be around just when they want something, but rather when they think they can help you

~vonderwall Aug 11, 2008

Oh gosh, please do search for my older poems too here when u hav time... I wrote this one when I had a terrible panic attack and I was so afraid of losing someone again and blah... This is a very sad one. O.o
Well, yeah, it's true it's not easy for me to trust anyone. People have caused me too much pain in the past.

*Jazzman1989 Aug 11, 2008 Student Writer

I'll be your friend

You can trust me

I know and can relate to your pain, I have felt it so often myself. I will look further into your gallery

~vonderwall Aug 12, 2008

Thank you.

*Jazzman1989 Aug 12, 2008 Student Writer

My pleasure

and You are most welcome

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